July 17, 40 days after the college entrance examination, anxiety, tangled, loss, hope……Various indistinct sentiment in the peaks and valleys of the “disturbed” melody halted. June 7, Chinese-style entrance started, thus, the high of 2013 parents also face a hidden entrance.9,000,000 9,000,000 candidates parents, both high and low, regardless far apart, are standing helplessly in a corner outside the examination room, the children cheer.Impatient, maybe two days stay in the examination room outside the gate; calm, perhaps as usual daily life and work; a guilty conscience, perhaps only dare corner of my eye peek at the entrance of a child, from the face of volatile secretly speculation was the examination.0.2013 this summer, I can be considered one of 9 million candidates parents, two days, I should belong to a class of people impatient, but the kids gave me early in the exam under the “command”, I had to clean up all the worry and anxiety , pretending calm at home waiting to hear.I could bear, when the last bell had just sounded the exam, secretly standing in the school’s back door. These two days, to me too long!Cell phone out of his pocket and into them, out to caress a long time, until hot, still afraid to call the child.This time, I can not tell him what it takes, I do not even know what I gave him, and my heart just firmly remember his words: “Do not call, do not come to school.”From this time, the college entrance examination began to torture me, tortured candidate parents. Numerous wandering circle, many times at the time, over and over again to sit down, stand up, then sit down, then stand up.Bell finally sounded, that just fought a tough battle appeared at sight.Watching the children smile, suffers heart with a trace of comfort. It may be some relief!At least half the time do not want to be college entrance examination scores do not want, do not want the future, just good, quiet and relax.Quiet heart in getting closer to scores published days up badly as active.Good and bad, have gone through as embark on the road, watching the scenery along the way seem familiar, it seems strange, people can not tell?A person who appears to have avoided the college entrance examination, but in reality my heart all the time out in the whirlpool in the college entrance examination, as the days June 22 near the scores published worry about expectations. Check points that moment, I saw his hand was shaking, my heart actually it not like him shaking it?He participated in the college entrance examination, as I was also tortured entrance.The last digit losers, he landed a cover page with the palm, suddenly encountered a bunch of light like the eyes, once tightly shut up.I know he’s worried about, ten years read it slowly, while not hard, but it never lost behind others.”As long as admitted 600 points, I think it has been very good.”I comforted him, hands away from your computer, 601 appear in everyone Seeing.At this point, it is at 10:00 on June 22 in the evening, the street was basically close the door.He clamored to repeat, I categorically said, “even if two have to leave, too tortured people entrance!”I thought torture was over, did not think this is the beginning. What kind of volunteer to fill in, how to fill out the science of how to fill volunteer, you can help him on to their favorite universities, professional learning their own interest, and can therefore help the future way of life?These, I do not know at all, and even hand-foot-stricken.If the college entrance examination is a test of his basic knowledge, learning ability, then the voluntary reporting is more like a test of the parents.Chinese college entrance examination style is really unique ah, then a ring a ring, a college entrance examination to improve the quality of cultural and generational. 6 days, running two generations thought reached an unprecedented rate!He and I, one will be allies, one would then be the pros and cons.18 years old, he has too many dreams of youth and innocence, 38 years old, I have too many hardships and realities, two different ideological tussle in the intersection, persuasion, compromise and the rise of two forces in life and experience in.Quarrel, quarrel, we like explosive powder, a little bit of Mars as if it will break out! Fights, fight over, uttered, even crying, torture entrance after the collapse of the fragile nerves almost one another.In fact, we regard the volunteer too seriously, in fact, really heavy, I invited around familiar people: parents experienced the college entrance examination, the candidates; also invited university professors help pointing; is sparing no effort to human resources talent exchange with him.I do not want to be the winner of this war, I just want to do something for him, let him take some detours in later life on the road.Finally voluntary reporting within the stipulated time to complete the fill, off the net, but never did share the suffering related to live, it’s the initiator of this torture began a new round of torture. waiting.Wait, is a first old man, is a blunt instrument, unknown in the long years, the human body and soul, begins to cut in pieces. He was lying on the living room couch all day, bored Chennai, do not know the answer to verify my heart what ways?I drifted off all day long, running in each group in the College Entrance Examination wiretapping, sneak in to inquire about the news website each query, each time without success, they increase the share of apprehension and suffering heart.Such a sentiment I do not know what kind of vocabulary or sentence to describe, I just feel like that is a result of couples in a long time no news, hope every day, every night hope, even if it is a little bit of information You can comfort dry soul.Especially when I heard who, who was admitted to which school, who, who has been seen on the Internet, but I have not heard anything, I even think I was a headless flies, do not know who to ask.So, night after night of sleep, too tired to sleep even later, will suddenly awakened from a dream, rush to open the computer, although not see anything, but at this time, walk in each site, after all my heart feel better. This torture, today is the 40th day.Fortunately, it was said he admitted to the Southwest Jiaotong University, hearsay can not be trusted!He and I at Southwest Jiaotong University’s official website found the exact message, tortured heart slowly with life, I hope next wait — notice may go to his hand. College entrance examination, this life only willing to once!I want to say: thank him!This torture, no matter how tough, is sweet.